Five Minute Friday — Trust

 

On Fridays we just write without worrying if it’s just right or not.

 

I’m joining with Lisa at: http://thegypsymama.com/2012/02/five-minute-friday-trust/

Start:

TRUST   —   reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. 2. confident expectation of something; hope.

I prayed: Psalms 139:23-24 ” Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:  And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. ”

I trusted that all would be right.

I searched and made a list.

I trusted all would be improved.

I prayed.

I read His Word.

I am still trusting  —  being helped  —  receiving guidance.

I am encouraged that what is shown can be committed to His Care and still trust in His Help.

Then………..Exposure………..Shock

What is this?!     Is this what I am?

I look up the word.

I read the definition.

The Thesaurus is plain to describe me.

The antonyms are opposite and what I am not an antonym.

Now  — where is my trust?

My prayer has been answered.

God searched and found.

My trial is:

What do I do?

Where do I go?

How do I start?

I read and pr ay  —  Now ” lead me in the way everlasting. ”

“TRUST ” is whispered.

And I remind my undone self.

I have trusted.

I trusted.

I trust.

I am trusting.

I shall be trusting.

Stop.

As I read this over ‘ I ‘ is prominent. That surely is part of the problem, but the fruit of that I is so ugly and hurtful. I despair and in my despair I am struggling to continue to trust.

Published in: on February 10, 2012 at 11:23 am  Comments (3)  

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  1. Thanks for posting! So often “I” get in the way too when I am trying to trust. Don’t despair. Put your hope in God, “yet I will still trust Him.” I prayed for you that God will show Himself to you and prove Himself worthy of your trust.

  2. Loved the picture you used…trust is a process and you are trusting Him as you remind yourself of what is true about Him even though the way is hard right now…praying that you can feel Him with you and that you know He is trustworthy…it can be hard at times…

  3. psalm 51 is a good place to start when you feel like there are too many of “I’s”…. 🙂


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