Five Minute Friday – Afraid

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“This is where a brave and beautiful bunch gather every week to find out what comes out when we all spend five minutes writing on the same topic and then sharing ‘em over here.” With Lisa

‘Writing for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking’ but I always check the spelling ( I have blame my mother for that quirk.

Prompt – AFRAID

I have been afraid of trying most of my life. As a teenager I didn’t try things for fear of how I would look, whether I could do it right or do it good enough.
I backed myself in a box.
As I grew older I would learn a skill, then degrade my abilities because I didn’t do it as well as someone else.
Then I took a basic accounting class at a junior college.We had recently started a business and I needed to brush up on my high school bookkeeping. I was 38 years old.
I got A’s on almost all of my work.
I looked at those grades.
I knew how much effort I put forth.
It was not 100% by any means.
I realized,
I was putting the bar of accomplishment ‘way higher than it needed to be.
I could do my skills well.
I was able to do ‘A’ work, I had proof.
I didn’t have to knock myself out to do it, either.
I didn’t have to be afraid to try.
I just had to be brave enough to try.

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  1. Brave enough to try. Good words. I know too well the fear that cries “Hold back.” But I know the rewards of blazing ahead anyway–being brave enough to try. Very rarely do my fears come to full fruition, and yet the fear tries to creep in anyway.
    I just thought about the word “try.” Even if you don’t succeed at the ultimate goal, you can always succeed at trying. Trying and succeeding, and trying and failing, is still trying. So, why not.

    • Why not, indeed. thanks for the kind words.

  2. Leslie- I can relate to your journey. It is so easy to let negative thoughts discourage…I like that to be brave rather than afraid! We can scale a wall with our God! He is the one who sets the standards and gives us the strength to keeping going. What a relief!

    • We can do all things. . . thanks for your kind words

  3. Dear Leslie
    Happy FMF! This is what counts … that first step forward, then the next and the next and the next and before you know, you have conquered those fears!
    Much love
    Mia

    • stepping 🙂


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